i'm upset.

it's rare when i get really, really upset, like really resisting the urge to slap myself. and i haven't felt THIS upset in ages. so now my heart feels like it's really breaking. and no it's not over some lost love or whatever. love is stupid anyway. and i'm not that silly. -_-

sorry. how can i ever say enough of that to you? i practically ruined your life with all the stupid sarcastic comments, and it's not until today that i finally realised you're way more than just a dumb pathetic laughing stock. sorry for forgetting you had the word "emotions" in your dictionary. sorry for neglecting your feelings, sorry for being an immature idiot who knows nothing better than to laugh at you. it's alright if you hate me or whatever. because i deserve it.

i know it's way back. but i know you have not forgotten anything. and i know you're still hurt. trying to get over everything but fail to whenever you see anyone who reminds you.. of the past.

what can i say? sorry is not going to help. what i really, really hope for is to turn back the clock and be nicer to you. at least, treat you like a human with feelings. but it's impossible am i right?

sorry. i promise i'll never come up with nonsense about you again. and i promise i'll disappear from your sight if i happen to bump into you or something.

and of course. i promise i wont bother you with my nonsense again.


you can have my word on that. because i've never felt this upset with myself before. if i feel this upset then it must really mean something, right?

sorry. and if you ever see this do let me know.