i don't know why the moment i feel just a teeny bit of warmth and sense of belonging in somewhere, a certain somebody from the somewhere had to ruin everything for me and make me feel lost.
what is it with people? do they really feel the thrill after taking something really precious from someone, leaving the poor someone alone and frightened?
i cant believe it. really. how often this happens to me. and i thought i could live with it, but the truth is, i can't. i don't want to turn into cold, uncaring Letitia again.

because living with it means i'll have to stop being nice. stop caring.

but i can't do it.



well actually i intend to flame this particular someone RIGHT HERE, but it's just an INTENTION, so i suppose i won't bother. not if i want to live peacefully for the rest of my life, that is.

so i'll let it go. just this once.

but i still have to say this. the most atrocious mistake of any human being, is to draw conclusions without getting the facts right.
i thought i've been stressing on this quite often nowadays, right?
so YOU- be thankful that i'm not exposing you publicly here- have no right to scold all those Q#$%^&*()*&^%$^&*( UP THERE, because it's not his fault ok? don't try to be all bossy and nasty just because you're some ________, for all you know it's not done by some idiot who has evil intentions, maybe it's just some kid messing around, so chill, really. using THAT reflects badly on you, you do know that, right?

call me senstive, whatever. but i'm just wondering, why does it have to be you? but i'm kinda thankful. cos i wont be seeing you that often anyway. so yay.


-deep breaths-




cooled down, hurray. can't believe that the fact that i'm using my new lappy cant stop me from fizzling over. woosh.




um, ok. i'm a happy girl again. and DON'T try to ask me WHAT happened and WHO that person and come up with all that 5W and 1H and expect me to answer you, because if you're clever enough with words and WHAT THEY REALLY MEAN, then you'd know what i'm talking about.

tata. i'm off.